Sunday, June 17, 2012

"Starring Kevin Costner as Kevin Costner!"

I miss your running joke about Kevin Costner. He still is one of my favorite actors and I know this because I watched Dances with Wolves again today for probably the 30th time. I had to reflect that maybe it's not as much his acting as it is the roles he chooses. Maybe it's because he looks a little like my dad. Dad is kind of a cross between Costner and Steve McQueen. Whatever the reason, you always gave me a bad time about liking him because you thought his acting wasn't really acting, just him being him. You'd laugh and say "Oh, look, it's Dances with Wolves, starring... Kevin Costner... as ... Kevin Costner!", or "Message in a Bottle starring... Kevin Costner ... as ... Kevin Costner!" And so it would go with any film bearing his presence.
What you didn't know and might have found interesting and perhaps elevated your view of him are the following tidbits:
Dances with Wolves and Field of Dreams are among the American Film Institute's 100 Most Inspiring Movies of All Time.
He turned down Jeff Bridge's role (albeit of his best performances!) in Jagged Edge and the Kill Bill roles!

"I made a life. I pretend to be heroes, that’s what I’ve gotten to play but that doesn’t make me."
                                                                                                                                            K. Costner

But I think you would have loved his recent mini-series, "The Hatfield's and The McCoys", even if you couldn't admit it! Everyone else in the series were actors you liked!

His band also has a song out that has become quite popular, so there is no denying he has talent, and even you might concede to that!

Angels Came Down

Walking all alone in the Southern rain
By graveyards and battlefields that blood still stains
Back to a time when the angels came
Walking all alone in the Southern rain
In the forests and the fields so many men were killed
I can hear their cries still echo through these hills
That was the time when the angels came
Walking all alone in the Southern rain
The angels came down to the fallen men
They held their hands and they prayed for them
They carried their souls beyond the moon and the sun
All the way to heaven one by one
The angels worked so hard for so many years
To heaven and back again they shed so many tears
They left no one and they placed no blame
Walking all alone in the Southern rain
The angels came down to the fallen men
They held their hands and they prayed for them
They carried their souls beyond the moon and the sun
All the way to heaven one by one
Walking all alone in the Southern rain
Never heal the troubles never heal the pain
But that was the time when the angels came
Walking all alone in the Southern Rain

While looking for the lyrics to Angels Came Down, I found another song. When I do my silly dance for you in the moonlight, I now hear this song in my head. And I think how happy I am that it is performed by Kevin Costner... as Kevin Costner!

Moon So High

Moon’s so high
Nowhere to go but down from here
Here am I wishing that you were near
But it all came crashing down
You were nowhere to be found
Yeah I remember your little girl smile
I guess never had you
Just held you for a little while
Till it all came crashing down
You were nowhere to be found
There’s still pieces all around scattered everywhere
You could break my heart girl a thousand times or more
I’d still come running back to knock upon your door
Don’t get me wrong I really ain’t that mad
You’re just the best thing I’ve ever had
And I remember last November
Yeah I see right to the day
You turned around and walked away
Then it all came crashing down -
You were nowhere to be found
There’s still pieces all around
Pieces of my broken heart
The Moon So High tonight
Nowhere to go but down from here
Well you’d think by now I might’ve learned to say goodbye
But I’ll never say goodbye I’ll never say goodbye ...


Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Baja or Bust!


Kenton and I were sitting and reading on the beach with Rosie in front of Dad and Pam's lovely home in Baja. Their house is right behind us. I asked them the same thing you would have, "You couldn't get something a little closer to the water?" Rosie looks well and loves the sand and the sea! When we arrived, there was a rabbit running on the road behind their house right in front of the truck. She went under their back fence and sat in their side yard until Rosie spotted her. Was that you she chased so happily? We believe it was. When we left at 5:00 AM, there she was again on the darkened side of the road as if to say farewell.
Frigate
I danced under the full moonlight for you, wrote in my journal for you, and we all sent some of Grandma Judy's and your ashes into the moonlit sea.
Eggs in nest.So beautiful and peaceful with lovely people not in a hurry. The Tamale Lady brought fresh tamales our first morning. We fished off their boat and saw brown pelicans,  frigates, and ospreys sitting on their huge nests high atop the rocks.
I put the proverbial "message in a bottle" for you and Dad and Pam will send it out in the Sea of Cortez. You loved the water when you were little, not so much when you got older. I hope you are traveling to all the places you ever dreamed of and more and finding the peace there that you couldn't find here.
Dad saw the same beautiful angel cloud in Baja that Chana and I saw on the playground. We have no doubt who it was. A painting waiting.